Moved Me

I was looking at a blog from a friend's blog and the story was of the loss of their little girl. After wiping the tears away from reading this deeply moving story I was really humbled. Here this family was dealing with the loss of their child and praising the Lord throughout it all. It was so moving. One comment on the blog was that even with the death of their child and even earlier when they had received the news that the child would not survive the mother said that God had not changed since they walked into the Dr's office. He was the same as He always was and would continue to be. That moved me. I walked away from the computer with red puffy eyes and headed to the kitchen to start our school day. Then as the kids and I were looking at a verse to memorize it hit me. This was the verse Hebrews13:8 Jesus is the same yesterday and today and forever. What I think I had been failing to see was that He really is always and will always be there and instead of trying to chase Him down as if we are in a race and He is way out in front. He is right there next to me. If I would just be still and listen and wait He will let me in. All the struggles I feel trying to impart wisdom to my kids about God will come so much easily if I let Him in to my life without rules or time constraints. I have tried so hard to create this model quiet time and every time I fall short. I have tried to memorize scripture and after awhile I fall short. I think what I finally understand is that He will always be there and that if I could stop trying to have the quiet time that so and so has, or the entire New Testament memorized like so and so and just focus on me getting to know the God who has saved me, the God who provides for me, the God that loves me for the beauty in my heart I would be so much more blessed. I know that this is probably jumbled and maybe slightly confusing, but I just had to write it down so in between the kids need for rescuing from the "monster" IE: big brother Caleb and from the monster's in the twins diaper I hope it isn't too crazy. God Bless and have a good day.